what now?

it has become so awkward at home after THE incident last Monday. i perfectly understand M. no matter how level-headed and mature he is, i could tell he's hurt and only time can heal the pain. he has been avoiding "encounters" with D. he either leaves home really ealry while D is still asleep or comes home a little late than usual when D is already in the room.

D, on the other hand, seems to have a tinge of regret about what he did but still, the damage has been done. it's weird that he's been like that --- hurting other people at one moment and acting as if nothing happened the next. i mean, he feels it's automatic that people understand that he's sorry for it or didn't actually mean what he did.

now i don't know what happens now. i am conditioning my mind and heart that my father's day plan will not push through. D says he's going home while i could feel that M is also not up to any celebration. i also don't want to force it because i don't want to put them in a difficult and awkward situation.

hay, life!