first month

around this time a month ago today, i was inconsolable, distraught, devastated and in disbelief that my dad met that very tragic accident that took his life, my aunt's and a very dear cousin's. i was in tears for more than 24 hours and was sleepless.

today, the pain is still as intense and as excruciating as a month ago. i still can't believe it really happened and the realization that Daddy's no longer here physically with us is such a torture.

i know the days ahead of me back in Cebu will be harder. i've already been used to having Daddy at home. i was a senyora with him around. he not only drives Marti to and from school and Minoy to and from the office, he also looked after the kids. He ran after our hyperactive Zach and he always offered to do some of the home chores especially when our house help and yaya went on a 45-day leave. More than these, he was really a very good and loving father to us.